Theres no one single day.
that my mind wouldnt think about you.
Theres no one single day.
that the feeling of missing you is gone.
and theres no one single day.
that my heart wouldnt pray for you.
still. my tears are flowing through my cheekbone sometimes.
when im missing you too much.
and theres nothing i can do.
except pray and continuely praying for you.
so that you have a better place there.
Sometimes.
i search for you in your room.
i guess that you are laying down on your bed or reading the Quran as always.
but you werent there.
then i go to the kitchen.
so i can smell something good of your cooks.
but you werent there also,
then i go to our parlour.
and i want to see you at your favourite spot.
you werent there also.
then i hope you are having a little chitchat with the neighbours.
i see the neighbours.
but i dont see you.
I just missing you a lot mom.
and its been more than 3 months.
the feeling cant get rid of itself.
i thought that it takes everything to move on.
but i guess everything just not enough.
Ya Allah.
I know you have a better plan for me.
jadi ya aku redha ya Allah.
cuma terkadang aku berharap aku dapat jumpak mak aku lagi.
walau dalam mimpi.
even its just 5 minutes dream.
Alhamdulillah baru mendapat kekuatan untuk menulis post ini.
tidak pernah aku bayang akan hidup yang dia tiada.
tiada lagi senyuman menyambut aku setiap kali pulang.
tidak mengapa.
aku benar2 harap aku dapat bertemu dengan kau ibu di syurga kelak.
insyaAllah. :)
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