fuh2 habuk2 sikit huhu.
its the only story that i dont tell people. that ive kept in this 4 years.
i thought that i am completely okay but then ive realised that im not okay when im meeting someone.
but never mind. im getting stronger anyway.
i may look strong but am i strong enough to act strong in front of people ? oh after a while i still can said so since people dont notice them. i act strong just because being strong is the only choice i have for the moment. but the truth ? im dead inside. its tiring, dying feeling actually when you really cant love another because of her.
and because of that, im become more open to let people know about my story nowadays; but then the chosen one je la kan huhu. it makes me relieve somehow even the advises given is just the same haha. be strong. you have to move on. but really thank you for those words. tapi standard la kan tak mungkin kerna sayang cuma kadg kala aku terkenang. clichee
why im writing this post ? oh bukan utk meraih simpati manusia2. because ive kept this story by myself for too long until i dont have any excuses when the other people asked me about marriage and whatsoever. and because im feel tired having this feeling. i want to let go. and i do hope i can really let go this time. pray for me; for my heart. i will smile again someday.
ive been in love with someone didnt love me back; and ive been love with someone that i didnt love back. and i dont know which is worse; to be broken or to break another soul :(
after all today is mother's day. mak, rindu :( insyaAllah akan tiba masanya kita bertemu.
